Falling into the unknown

I'm scared.
I'm scared to do it.
I'm scared to say it.
I'm scared I'll want to take it back,
that I'll realize I didn't mean it and that I'll have messed up again.
I'm scared I don't know and that I'll never know.

Pray for the answers.

There's nothing scarier than getting what you want,
because then you have something to lose.

Coeur dans l'ascenceur

Exhale;
Your heart sinks into your stomach.
Avoid eye contact;
yet you can't look away.
It's too much for your lungs,
How could you do this to me?
Your throat tightens.
Try to inhale;
only to choke on the lump
Now's not the time.
that swells while everything slips away.
Your heart pulsates under your skin.
Why does it matter?
You're falling, everything's going numb.
Not again.
It won't change,
Look into the distance.
Promise not to cry anymore.


It hurts.

Still.

Watching people

He said that the only reason we're more advanced is that we see patterns.
But what if we're always seeing patterns?
What if that's all you're looking for?
Is it wrong to look for meaning in everything?

Someone else said that there's no point in trying to decipher the meaning of everything because that will take the fun out of it.
I don't want to be too serious.
I just can't help but psychoanalyze. A lot.

That's not judging people, if its kept under control, right.
Draw conclusions from experience, not from first glance.
Why is it so much easier to evaluate someone else?
When does the time come for our self-inventory?

If only we could see ourselves from the outside,
for who we really are.