what else do you want to talk about

I always thought grown ups had more interesting conversations;

like I wasn't worthy - but that I would have them someday too, and then I could be worthy.
Conversation was supposed to be more interesting and complicated, something I could never understand while I was younger.

Yet, I've come to realize that conversation isn't better or stronger, we just talk about different things

and a lot of the same things too. We just have more inside jokes. In fact, that's not even true.
We just have more perverse inside jokes. We see more. As in the perverse side of things, or the irony.

Maybe we become more aware, and we don't even know it.
And maybe I'm a little bit disappointed, because I had higher expectations.

But some people just don't grow up.